The Unexpected Life in ......here~~~

Well, before I came to Sunway College, (a new lifestyle that i never gone through before ), I think it was pretty fun and at last I can enjoy my freedom, my parents would not wake me up early in the morning, no more helping my dad under the sun~~ However, I never thought it could be so stress, I guess the reason why Ausmat is driving me crazy is because I took the March intake Ausmat~ If I took the January intake, all the things will be difference~~ The lecturer can spend more time to teach me more clearly and I got more time to revise, to absorb~~ Thus, I would not fail almost all the subjects due to the unclear idea I received from the lecturer~~ Now, I feel down and embarrassing because I'm the LAST of the whole program(Ausmat) or you can say 'THE WEAKEST STUDENT' in the Ausmat~~ I feel sorry for all the one who support me, especially my parents, they spent so much money for me to continue study here and yet I had made them disappointed~~ And I'm sure I'm the one should be blame because I did not study well in the secondary school, I do not have the good basic for all the subjects and I just cannot change my lazy attitude away~~ I did not do enough revision and I always waste my time doing meaningless things~~ It's true, I found out myself that even when I studying or doing homework, I was constantly distract my attention from my homework to anything~~ So, I really feel guilty~ I hope I can found the way to make everything rights as soon as possible. I really do not want to fail my Ausmat, waste my time, waste my parents money, made everybody disappointed & lost hope to me~~ oT...To